Beauty

Hi my friends! As you know I talking about beauty today. What beauty means to you? What makes you proud of yourself? I believe most of the people in the world cares about how they look and how people think of them. Why do I say that? Firstly, I'm a girl, I know how they feel. Most think that appearance will make them more secure. Guys too but I'm not a guy so I do not know how they feel. Let talk about me. Before I knew I was diagnosed with cancer, I was very happy with my life. I love taking selfie, I love my hair. I always play with my hair when I was bathing, I love to tie different hairstyle at home everyday, I dyed, I rebonded and I do a lot of hair treatment like a normal girl will do. My hair was my everything to me. With my hair I felt pretty, I felt secure.

When I was to start chemotherapy, a nurse told me some of the side effects and one of it was losing hair. At that time, I do not feel anything yet, I thought that it will be okay. However, when I started to lose a bit everyday, I felt scare. Seeing my hair dropping everyday makes me do not want to look at myself in the mirror. My self-esteem drop. I'm worried that I go out, people will use a different way to look at me. I start wearing beanie. I start to find something that will make me feel secure. My mum worried of me seeing how my head looks like. When I ask her to take a picture of my head and show me for the first time, she refused. Thus, I took myself and when I saw, my tears started to fall. I was shocked by how I look. My mum came and comfort me. It was definitely a hard time for me to go through.

I can say that even now, I'm still finding something that will boost my self-esteem. Hence, I'm here today to tell everyone, every male and female that you are beautiful, you are handsome. Looks does not really matters. Most important thing is how you look at yourself. I started to not wear beanie when I'm in school or outside. My current hair is very short. I believe that even tough I do not have much hair, but there is still people out there loving who you really are. What for care about those who you do not know? They do not know you, they do not know what you have been going through. Do not waste your tears on such people. I'm here to tell you that whoever you are, I love you because I believe everyone is special. I love everyone, the poor, the rich, the tall, the short, every race, every religion, everyone! People who says that do not care about their appearance is just lying. Who do not care? So those people out there who laugh at us, think about it! Is it a right thing to do? What if you are the one who have illness and you look like us and people laughing at you? Will you be happy about it? You should treat people like how you want to be treated.

#beauty